Mentally Drained

What a wonderful day. Able to receive emails BUT unable to send out!! This is totally crap..i want to suicide..So many important emails today that needs my attention but i can't reply to any of them..OMG!! My boss come over to the site office and experience my tongku. Lol. Also good to let him know not i dont want to work, it's can't work.

Wanted to go home earlier to send emails but have to do OT tonight :( another upgrading project. Guess tonight at home is specially for work only. First time i realise the importance to be able to send out emails.

Dying...............................
I want to sleep.................

What I Feel

For the past few days, my left eyelid been twitching. Then i've found out it's due to stress. The unknown stress that strucks on me without me noticing it. Did some research and found out that stress comes in 3 forms. Physical, Emotional and Behavioral.

A physical stress might be an injury , an annoying sound or an uncomfortable chair. Emotional stress includes things like fighting with a friend, or the death of a loved one. Behavioral stress might come from alcohol, caffeine, or poor sleep.

Probably i'm mentally stress at work and emotional stress. I thought i handled it well but turns out the other way. Didn't notice it after yesterday's dinner. Rushed over to the ulu bali village near PSA for family dinner. During the dinner, i can't get hype up. Totally no mood to joke or play around. Tried to but can't.

How to relieve stress?

Dulan

Can't stand people why they keep chasing things which i already promised to do. I'm not a SUPERMAN. How much do you think one person can do at a time? Just tell me 1 time and i'll do it, just need more time. You dont need to inform the upper level to remind and question me. FUCK UP!

For these people, once u did that once to me. I'll remember that. And don't expect me to treat you the same as before. Hate 2 faces people.. One face say 'Thanks for your help. Very appreciate', another face just 'complaint and backstabs'. Diu! So for now, you can complain whatever you want..need my help? queue for it!

Tuas Episode 3

Went to work this morning. Saw the doors are activated with the card pass thingy. And the problem is 'I DONT HAVE THE ACCESS CARD!' Zzzz have to knock the door everytime i want to enter. Then in the afternoon, i was forced to attend a safety class. To understand the safety at construction site. Just 10mins. 10mins, my eye lids closed. The speaker is a 'ah neh', the way he talk made most of us go activate sleep mode. During this time, i manage to find a good way to sleep without getting caught. Is to keep your head up at all time, with the eyes close. Gotten through with that cos the room is rather dark.

I thought the safety class is over. But this time, they gave out a paper. It's a Test!! Woah..i was sleeping all the way and now attempting to do the test. lol. Lucky the paper is easy. The only ppl who fail are those without common sense. Hope i'm not one of those.

Tuas Episode 2

Had a very nice nap on the way to Tuas. After reached Tuas West Drive, the bus uncle went crazy. He drove damn fast. lol. sif someone is chasing him. After alighted the bus, went up to the office. Still in blur condition. 2 words makes me high 'NETWORK DOWN'. Straight away awake. Manage to bring the network back within 1h30mins. Not too bad hur. Busy morning.

Rain just now at Tuas. Super heavy man. Monsoon rain like that. Even with umbrella still will get wet. So i got drenched just to board my boss car. =.= Station at IBP in afternoon to settle some stuffs. Suddenly felt like i'm so important. haha. but travelling 2 sites are very troublesome.

Damn. I really like my customer. He's a Norwegian SVP. SVP wor..Just helped him settled his email thingy, and he's darn happy. kept shaking my hand and say thank you. He really appreciate that. Kana praised by him makes me happy too..lol..so many ppl look at me i also paiseh..cos he has a 'loud' voice.

Have to go work now...

First Day

What i like about working at Tuas.

1) Can sleep in bus for like 35mins from JE to workplace.
2) Can sleep in bus for like 40mins from workplace to JE.

What i hate about working at Tuas.

1) Wake up at 6.30am.
2) Squeeze bus with people.
3) Weather cold in the morning.
4) Food is more expensive.
5) 2 choices of food. Fried rice or Sandwich. wth.
6) Here and there also bangla.

Boring

Ok good. Cancelled my tennis session today. Forced to cancel it. Becos have to go work in the afternoon. My colleague gave me a ride to TUAS site office.

On the way there, saw a truck overturned and covered 3 lanes!! Is it hinting us not to work today? Had to go 1 big round to reach the office. Boss say, target to leave office at 5pm. In the end, 6pm then can leave =.= overshot 1hr. And things are still not completed. Sian..

Prepared to die tomorrow. Forsee the coming busyness. Wish me luck. Thanks.

House Warming

Went to Dorothy's place for housewarming. It's a cozy and nice place for a family of 3. The location is very very good. Just 10mins bus ride to reach Orchard? That's super fast. Heard that it's not cheap because of the location.

It's really nice to see Isetan ex-colleagues. Brings back memories. Feels great. But one thing, i found out that i forgot most of their name!! what happen to my brain? has it automatically formatted their names away? Sian..wanted to call by their names but somehow just can't remember.

Have to go back to Site office tomorrow afternoon. On SUNDAY!! Things undone and all need to operational by Monday. Kinda sad right. My manager said this 'No choice. We're in IT line'. I totally agree with that. IT job isn't as easy as what you think. So, don't bully IT personnel. Sacrifices are often made in terms of time. I'm still not ready.

I want to keep all promises i made. And this is what i want. Never an empty promise from my mouth to someone i love or treasure.

Head Getting Bigger

Don't know what to say..but my head is like can explode anytime. Too many things to be done at work. and no one to share the load with me. (Kill me)

Tired..feel like giving myself a break today and slack it throughout. Dont want to think of anything. Don't want to work on anything. (Dream on)

Got dragged into the fired up conversation between VP and Director. Their firepower is too huge for me. Luckily got a small file to act as a shield to minimize damage. (Siam ah)

And damn! I hate Norway IT. Give me nothing but problems..Diu! (If you come Singapore, i'll make you eat 50 white rabbit sweet)

Headache

Whole morning i'm not sure what am i doing. Keep running here and there. Problems keep coming in. Norway IT keep delaying the things i want them to do. Sian.. Their IT are so complicated. Outsourcing here and there. Then i have to do the contact :( This big fish is not easy to support.

Heard that they just rented 2 more units in the same building to cope with the incoming employees. Damn..getting more and more ppl to handle. They are directors and managers level. Let's hope they are not too hard to deal with.

Headache..headache..and headache..

Pawned

Just received an expected sianness news.. I have to go to TUAS to work from next week onwards for like 1-2-3 weeks..depends...OMG??? TUAS is a deserted place. It's totally lifeless over there. SIAN......

And where is the new colleague that my boss promised?? He's suppose to station over at TUAS and not me. I gonna pump all my skills into him when he comes and throw him there :(

I'll start to miss..
1) waking up at 8.20am and go to work.
2) slowly walk to office with no time constraint.
3) the straight bus to office.
4) the directors who took care of me.
5) the food bribes by the customers.

What a news to spoil my day....

Roaring Night

Stormy night yesterday. The lightning was terrible and strange i would say. It doesn't sound normal.. It woke me up in the middle of the night at 2.30am. And so hard to get back to sleep. Sian got disturbed.

First time ever, got intimidated by the lightning.

Saturday
Mamamia. The movie not bad. Thanks bl for the treat :) Didn't know they got so many nice songs. Haha. Trying to find the album and download. :P

Had Tian Tian Steamboat. It's really Ohh Myy Godd! Seriously, the rating i give a 100% fail!! Don't ask why. Just don't go there eat. Zzzzz....Yet there are so many ppl. They really advertise very well. That's the only reason i can think of.

Friday!

Let's hope today is another good and slacky day. Whole of this week don't have any mood to work. Not sure why. Have to slack as much cos my friday have to get burnt again! 3 weeks of OTs on friday. What is this? So good to burn my fridays meh? Diu! Migration of servers at Gateway West tonight. Think about it, it's quite expected that most of the fridays will get burnt when working in IT industries. This is my ricebowl, no choice. Want to switch line? i believe it's too late. So let's keep working. And do the best. Build up my career.

After yesterday's lunch, still kinda tempted to eat grilled salmon again.

Okay. Today is friday. Readers, do enjoy to the fullest tonight!! Ciao.

OMG, i want to beat up the singtel guy which i mentioned previously. His fucking attitude totally piss me off. Pui! Sibeh dulan! Talk like that to customer. WTF?

Lunch?

Today very slack in office. Not much things to do. Then my customers brought me to a place to eat. Omg! The place high class de lor. It's a Thai restaurant near PSA. The ambience is good. The food still not bad. Especially i like the Morning Glory and Grilled SALMON! Btw, morning glory = kang kong. I didn't know it's called that. Haha. The salmon is really fresh and nice. Love it. I paiseh to take pictures cos i'm eat with Directors. Cannot do things like that. :( I didn't manage to see the bill but i believe it's quite expensive. Think the price is around $120. Just for lunch. They say it's a farewell lunch for me and one of the director. Cos both of us are going to TUAS soon. Sian..

After the lunch, went to Vivocity to buy a power bar. Really a relaxing day. Go shopping after lunch. At Vivo, took a look at the Simont display items. It's really nice. But pricey. Walked until 3pm then head back to office. What a slacky day...

Sian

Sibeh sian..things not smooth this morning..a singtel manager chasing for a phone datacable?? is he too free?? this is really annoying. kept pestering me to return him. if i got the cable i would have return it, why the hell i want the cable for??

Then i'm too free today..went to chat with the user.. accidentally talked on what i'm not suppose to say..stupid me..better keep my mouth shut..

One more day to Thursday.
Two more days to Friday.
Three more days to Saturday.
Four more days to Sunday.
Five more days to Monday!! Another week...

Sian................

Physically tired after the jog. Legs dont feel like mine. Want it to move also no energy. Overstressed my legs. Sian.

Can't Stand

Sometimes can't stand the management people. C'mon this is a newly setup company. What do you expect. I know your position very big. But everything needs time. Stop telling me about how good your previous job is. Don't tell me how many PA you got in the past to help you do misc things. And now complaining need to learn alot of things. In that case, don't change. Stick to your job!

This particular user is getting too free. Keep on giving me small problems. It really doesn't affects anything about his work. He's like a Microsoft software tester, keep telling me bugs here and there. I'm not a programmer, how the hell i know how to solve it. Diu!

Recently, my schedules are tight. Not much time to enjoy or relax. Too many things at work to think about. Weekends are short. Just one blink! And it's gone. Help!!

Want to get myself high on drinking one night. Just one night.

Nothing much

Played tennis on Sunday. My strokes are getting better :) More consistent. I remembered i didn't feel any tiredness during the session. Now i know why players wear cap during hot and sunny weather while playing. Not for only for cool looks, and also prevents you from getting tired easily. It really helps alot. Try it and you'll know.

Yesterday went for my weekly jogging. So far so good. Just that towards the end, my lower legs and feet almost got cramped. Probably i stressed my legs too much for the 2 days of exercising.

Although my working life everyday is busy. But at least it kept me occupied and not letting myself think too much, which i think it's good in a way. So far things are going on smoothly and getting better. Customers are seeing me more as a friend now. Working with ang mohs sometimes can be good. They are more courteous when need help and of course, i provide them my best support.

Working environment, colleagues, customers plays an important part to make myself feel at home when i'm in office.

Grumbles

Have to reach office 7+am this morning. Woke up as early as 6.30, didn't quite get use to it. Still very tired although i tried to turn in early last night.

At first, thought i could have a quick nap in the server room but well, plan failed. Norwegiens started work as early as 7am sharp. That's their culture. Work early, off early.

These few nights have been doing much OTs. Too many things need to be done. Seriously i'm drained. So are my colleague. Morale and mood got affected due to tiredness. Hate this. Can't really get my mood up.

Can we really balance work and life? Not easy i guess.

LOL

One of my colleague is going to Malaysia for 2 weeks from tomorrow. Working trip. Now left 2 of us, myself and my AM. Both of us are supporting the biggest customer.

Our schedules are very packed due to alot of things need to be done. And shortage of 1 manpower can be deadly. He said this to me, 'Please don't die on me for the next 2 weeks'. Haha. Cos he knows i'm having slight flu now. I'm not so easily go down one okay. Just have to be careful with my diet. This is one hard thing to control :(

Free lunch today :) Pizzas~

Headache

Had to reach office 8am this morning but i'm unable to. Due to headache. Ate panadol and went back to sleep for another hour. It gets slightly better and drag myself to work. At first, thought of getting MC but there are simply too many things to be done today. I can't just throw everything to my colleague. I sibeh nice hor. Hope he appreciates that.

Things are doing quite well till now. Most of the important things are settled at the moment. But there's still alot of bits and pieces of things need to be done too.

Hope i'm doing fine at the end of the day.

Not again!

After a tiring day of OT-ing for implementation of IP changing, it failed. Have to rollback. Waste my time!!

Took a cab home after that.

I HEARD THE SAME WORDS AGAIN!

天啊,放过我吧

Can people don't be that polite please.

What a day..

Irritated

I know this sounds strange but please don't say '谢谢你' to me anymore. You can say 'Thank you' or any other languages but in mandarin.

Why?

Yesterday took a cab home, the driver keeps say these 3 letters to me. On the way back, he said 10times. Really irritating lor. A word of 'Thank You' didn't know can disturb me so much.

This morning came to office, helped the user with some problems. AGAIN, the 3 letters appeared. Bah..

Whats wrong with me?

Realise

I'm adjusting myself to a slower pace at work. If you worked too hard, you'll only get yourself tired easily. And when you're tired, you'll not be able to focus and mistakes will occur. This is what i'm experiencing now. You don't need to multi-task, handle alot of things at once. Only need to complete and focus things one by one. If you're not a multi-task user and try to be one, tough life will be waiting for you.

Doing things slowly doesn't mean bad.
Doing things perfectly is something people will remember.

Think about it.

Why?

I'm not sure why my abdomen hurts after jogging. Is my breathing technique wrong or other reasons? Yesterday, i didn't push myself to the limit. Don't want to get too tired probably. Alot of things come across my mind during jogging. I hate that. It makes me unable to concentrate.

MZJD is a nice and funny taiwan drama. 2 more episodes to finish it. Guess i'll just slowly enjoy it.

Randoms..
My life..can say it's smooth-sailing. Except my studies. Haven't been through any big Ups and Downs. Lucky i guess. Or probably i'm conscious in protecting myself. Close friends around me get hurts, especially when relationships comes into picture. Sometimes i felt helpless. Wanted to help but don't know how. What i can do is to accompany them whenever they need me. As a piscean, i'm born to be a listener.

What are yours?

Right Brain/ Left Brain Quiz The higher of these two numbers below indicates which side of your brain has dominance in your life. Realising your right brain/left brain tendancy will help you interact with and to understand others. Left Brain Dominance: (10) Right Brain Dominance: (8) Right Brain/ Left Brain Quiz

Dinner at Summer Palace

Dinner at Summer Palace Restaurant at The Regent Singapore. As usual, big bosses always comes late. We, the small fries, will have to wait for them 30mins before starting the dinner. Had some wine session during the waiting period. I like the red wine they served, very pleasant taste.

Okay, i was informed that my team has to spread out the sitting arrangement. To socialise with them. Just when i'm deciding where to sit, a very kind, nice lady customer pulled me to sit with her. Had a good chat with the people around my table before the dinner starts. It's more like sharing cultures between us.

Total is 8 course meal including dessert. I like their fish, it's really fresh. And of cos, their dessert is superb. Combination of mango, aloe vera and sago.

It's a long way home from the hotel. Tired.

Embarrass

Back to stoning period. Will always have that after jogging. Working with a stoning condition is not bad in a way. Don't need to think, just execute. Eventually, all things will be done.

Coming Thursday, got invited to have a dinner at Summer Palace Restaurant, The Regent Singapore. Didn't know where is that place but sounds like a high class restaurant. Maybe can check it out later on websites. Heard that it's kinda pricey.

Embarrassed moment. This morning as usual, wake up on time and go work. After boarding the bus, the bus captain points at my pants. (point for what?) Then i realise that i didn't zip. Omg~ Zao Geng liao.. Quickly zip it back before anyone hurt their eyes or becomes central of attraction. Bah..

Going back to work. Ciao.

Terrible Monday

As usual, Monday is always a busy day at work. I'm tired. Did a mistake that can make my head drop. But well, i managed to skip that. Can't imagine if i didn't go work for just 1 day. Work will piles as high as a mountain. (Diu)

Went to jog after work. Body condition isn't that well. Abdomen starts to hurt after 10mins of jog. Tried to hang on, push myself to run but only manage to run 30mins. This is only half of what i should jog. Muscles aching now. Bah.



Okay. This is the picture which i didn't manage to upload in the previous post. (Nice packaging isn't it?)

East Coast Park

This morning, Olympics 4 x 100m swimming relay. Michael Phelps demonstrated his perfect Butterfly and won another GOLD MEDAL!! And set another world record. This is his 8th gold medal in Beijing Olympics. Outshined Mark Spitz who has won 7 gold medals in single olympics.

Went to East Coast Park yesterday. We walked from McDonald to seafood centre, which took about 25mins. Lol. Been quite a long time didn't go there but nothing much has changed. It's great to see the crowds having gatherings and playing games together. I missed that alot. To organize a big outing it's very hard especially when everyone is working and studying. As ly suggest, we should have a gathering after 10 years after graduate, which is 8 years later. (Good idea isn't it?)

Finally we reached our destination. The Seafood Centre. So many restaurants which one to choose? We ended up in No Signboard Restaurant as ly has good recaps that their food is nice. We ordered Stir Fried Vegetables, Claypot Beancurd, Honey Sauce Pork Ribs and Prawns.

Tada..managed to clear everything, very full. Overall satisfied with the food. After dinner, went to take a look at the watersports by the side. It's water-skiing. Each time when i saw them trying to ski over the platform, i'll say 'fall ah'. Haha.

Found a place to sit down, relax by the seaside. The moon is so round and bright. Gave ly a surprise gift. (Somehow blogspot unable to post up the pic now). The chocolate is really nice and soft. It melts the moment you bite on it. After that, we did alot of 'lame' and funny stuffs. Shhh....

Enjoyed the night with you.

Olympics

Opps he did it again. Yes. Michael Phelps won another gold medal yesterday and set another world record. This is his 7th gold medal in Beijing Olympics. Making 13th gold Olympic medals in his career.

Congrats Singapore to climb to the Finals in Table Tennis. Korea is indeed a very hard opponent. Their playing style has not changed since Athens. Slice and slice and waiting for the opponent to make mistakes. But, well done Singapore. Heard that Singapore will have one day off if Singapore were to won a medal. :)

Went out to town yesterday. My friend bought a bear from Forever Friends. It cost a bomb but it's kinda worth it. Very nice to hug and to play around. And me, i bought ............

Late night, my friend wants to chill at a pub. At first i thought something happened to him. So i agreed and decided to go Railmall(i'm tired and sleepy). But when the time we reached, it's closed. Wandered around the area still unable to find a place to sit down, talk and drink. In the end, ended up in Clarke Quay. First time, wearing so 'Lok' and go to town. People looking at us as if we're aliens. Good experience. Chose Asylym among all. Good view along the river. Windy in the night. Nice place to relax.

What a tiring night..

Pulau Redang

I can sense the peace today. Hope nothing big pops up in the middle of the day.

Guess it's time to organize my work inventory and stuffs.

These are some random pictures on Pulau Redang.

White sands, bluey water. Isn't it beautiful?

Someone please bring me there.

Needs and Wants

Fully packed at work today. No time for lunch too. Still got alot of outstandings not yet solved. My brain is out of juice to think. I need to be rejuvenated.

Finally weekend is coming. I want stingray. I want to relax. I want to travel.

Malaysia Redang. What are you waiting for?