Mentally Drained

What a wonderful day. Able to receive emails BUT unable to send out!! This is totally crap..i want to suicide..So many important emails today that needs my attention but i can't reply to any of them..OMG!! My boss come over to the site office and experience my tongku. Lol. Also good to let him know not i dont want to work, it's can't work.

Wanted to go home earlier to send emails but have to do OT tonight :( another upgrading project. Guess tonight at home is specially for work only. First time i realise the importance to be able to send out emails.

Dying...............................
I want to sleep.................

What I Feel

For the past few days, my left eyelid been twitching. Then i've found out it's due to stress. The unknown stress that strucks on me without me noticing it. Did some research and found out that stress comes in 3 forms. Physical, Emotional and Behavioral.

A physical stress might be an injury , an annoying sound or an uncomfortable chair. Emotional stress includes things like fighting with a friend, or the death of a loved one. Behavioral stress might come from alcohol, caffeine, or poor sleep.

Probably i'm mentally stress at work and emotional stress. I thought i handled it well but turns out the other way. Didn't notice it after yesterday's dinner. Rushed over to the ulu bali village near PSA for family dinner. During the dinner, i can't get hype up. Totally no mood to joke or play around. Tried to but can't.

How to relieve stress?

Dulan

Can't stand people why they keep chasing things which i already promised to do. I'm not a SUPERMAN. How much do you think one person can do at a time? Just tell me 1 time and i'll do it, just need more time. You dont need to inform the upper level to remind and question me. FUCK UP!

For these people, once u did that once to me. I'll remember that. And don't expect me to treat you the same as before. Hate 2 faces people.. One face say 'Thanks for your help. Very appreciate', another face just 'complaint and backstabs'. Diu! So for now, you can complain whatever you want..need my help? queue for it!

Tuas Episode 3

Went to work this morning. Saw the doors are activated with the card pass thingy. And the problem is 'I DONT HAVE THE ACCESS CARD!' Zzzz have to knock the door everytime i want to enter. Then in the afternoon, i was forced to attend a safety class. To understand the safety at construction site. Just 10mins. 10mins, my eye lids closed. The speaker is a 'ah neh', the way he talk made most of us go activate sleep mode. During this time, i manage to find a good way to sleep without getting caught. Is to keep your head up at all time, with the eyes close. Gotten through with that cos the room is rather dark.

I thought the safety class is over. But this time, they gave out a paper. It's a Test!! Woah..i was sleeping all the way and now attempting to do the test. lol. Lucky the paper is easy. The only ppl who fail are those without common sense. Hope i'm not one of those.